Well, I haven’t written a post in over three weeks, so I should get back into this and give all of you an update on my progress.
First things first; today (9/28) is my 33rd birthday! I am thankful beyond words for the Lord giving me breath every day for the last 33 years, especially when I consider how I have taken care of myself for the majority of that time. His patience and grace towards me means more to me than what words can express. Through a good portion of my journey, today was the day by when I wanted to reach 199 lbs. (my overall goal). I’ve known for a little while that it wasn’t going to be realistic for me to hit that number by today and you can read some previous posts to read more about that. The weight is coming off much slower, partially because I am getting closer and closer to my goal and have reached a reasonable weight, but also because of my own lack of discipline, which I have also addressed in previous posts.
How much have things slowed down? Well, on August 1 I weighed 218 lbs. On September 1 I weighed 220 lbs. Yes, I gained 2 lbs. in August, the first month that I had done so on the journey. I also happened to weigh in at 220 lbs. today, meaning in almost 2 months, I have gained 2 lbs. Of course, while that’s true, that is not how I choose to look at my current situation. The way that I choose to look at it is realizing and pointing out that earlier this month, I reached 213 lbs., which was the weight I reached when I lost weight about 10 years ago before gaining all of that weight back plus 80 lbs. in less than 8 years. So the immediate work that I have before me is getting back to 213 and then going from there because every pound I lose from here on out is very significant and I believe each of those milestones will give me the extra motivation I need to reach that final goal of 199 lbs.
Unfortunately, there is another obstacle that has been put in front of me that I need to get around – about 2 weeks ago, I lost my job. This means I have been home looking for and applying for positions, but it also means fighting and processing all of the emotions that come along with losing a job. It is a new situation for me, so while I am trying to plug away and move forward, it has been a challenge and I have found myself being undisciplined in not thinking about what I am eating (or the consequences of what I am eating) as well as not getting out to walk, even though the first few days went very well. I have no excuse not to exercise with the extra time, even while using much of the available time looking for jobs.
With my birthday over in a few hours, I have already put together a food and exercise plan that I am challenging myself to follow every day in addition to getting back to the food program that I have built for myself, which has worked quite well.
So we’ll see how things go…70 days left until the 100 week/700 day mark…time to do this! Time to get the focus level into “the second hundred” percent!